He woke me

I have neglecting this blog once again. Honestly I have a lot to say but writing is not my favourite medium of communicating. But here I am again writing.

This time I have something to say to you that has unsettled me and made me question many things. However I would like to state that I have no clear angle with this post. I have no solution and I don't know whether I will make sense to you.

The other day as I was walking back home to my res room, I saw a man walking passing me and something in me was disturbed. At first I did not know what exactly moved me and I did not know what in that man made me stop and think for a second. It has now come to my attention that I was unsettled by the man's face.

No he was not ugly or anything like that. He looked miserable and desolate.

I have seen sad people in my life and I have seen sad men too but this time something was completely wrong. In his blue overalls he seemed so lonely and distressed by something. I felt that he was sadden by something at work, something in the same institution we both know.

I supposed the man could have been angry or sadden by something simple. Not political or anything. Possibly his favorite team lost or he was left by someone. With all of this said I then realised that I was the one troubled and that the man's face woke something in me. My issue.

Today I reflected back on that day and have been questioning many things about myself and my surrounding. Never have I been so confused, concerned and puzzled about myself than today.

That man's face woke something sad in me that I was not conscious of. Something that hurts all the fibres of my body. Something that leaves me indifferent about life. What makes me scared is that I do not know what it is and when this beast will return to its den.

That is my story.